I’ve recently been offered a huge opportunity. I currently have a very stable job at a great place working with great people. This opportunity is to work for a major studio, with a one year contract. Since I came out to L.A., my goal has been: GET IN A STUDIO.
That was two years ago, and in the two years that I’ve been here, I met my boyfriend, got a house and adopted two dogs. I began letting go of chasing my studio dream. I freelanced for a while and always applied to studio jobs, but never had much hope. Anyone that lives out in L.A. will tell you that if you want to get into a studio, and you don’t know someone or start out at an agency yourself, you don’t have much chance of ‘scaling that wall’. I don’t know anybody and I never worked at an agency. And honestly? I scaled the wall all on my own, which feels amazing.
My current job is at a wonderful place with wonderful people. In L.A., it’s hard to find people with substance that won’t stab you in the back to get ahead but this place … this place is like a Zen garden. It’s great for my family because it’s stable and routine-oriented—I’m home by 6:30pm every night. I’ve been running the gauntlet of emotions since I got this job offer, naturally; guilt, fright, anxiety-ridden, happiness, and excitement. I’ve asked everyone for advice and the advice is always the same: “Write down pros and cons and see what matters to you.”
I wrote down the pros and cons and looking at my list I realized that on that paper it was broken down to dreams vs. family. Do I throw the work/family stability away and risk my family to chase my career, or do I throw away my career to keep balance in my family? I feel …